100 Days of Happiness - Day 11
What swelled mt heart today was watching my little Lili with her baby doll. She loves her baby and drags her everywhere with her. She makes sure her baby is tucked in with her at night and can often be found sitting quietly giving her baby cuddles with a blanket.
I am thankful to see these nurturing instincts and character emerging in her already. I hope that as I continue to mother and nurture her that she will continue to grow in this way. Auron loves the baby too but not in the way that Lili does. Her prefers to have her sky diving off the couches.
While the world is pushing and encouraging women to be career driven and children second I hope that my children, my daughters in particular will understand their role as a mother and a women of God. I want them to know that being a mother is not just an after thought. Children are a gift from God, and raising them is one of the biggest blessings you will ever receive. Being a mother should not come second to a career and travel and all those other things. I hope they know that as their mother, I simply love being their mother, I do not yearn to work outside the home or anything else. I want them to know that everyday I wake up living the life that I have always dreamed of.
It has taken me a long time to become okay with being "just a mum". It has always been all I have wanted to do, but to constantly have people question the validity of it as a career has been hard. I have often thought "am I missing something?" or "am I supposed to be wanting something more that this?" So, now when people ask me "So when are you going to use that degree you worked so hard for?" or "When are you going to give yourself a break and put the kids in day care a few days a week?" I can say without hesitation that, unless anything drastic changes I will be home with my children until my children are no longer home. I use my degree everyday and will continue too. It has given me skills beyond simply a knowledge of what my degree is in. You know what? sometimes I want a break for a few hours, but daycare is not the answer for our family. I know where God wants me, I know where my husband and I know where I want me, and honestly that is all that matters.
Oh I also had an amazing nap with the kids today...in our hut which is still up from the weekend! That made me pretty happy too. Too bad there was no room left for Aarahi when he got home from work, that would have made it even better.